Are you still there ?

Hey honey, i have always out you first in my heart and in all i do. I have put you before everything i think about. I always think about you, i always think about what will happen to you or how would you react before i do anything. I always think of consequences and reprecussions of anything i do would affect you. There is nothing about me that you dont know, but there is everything to you that i dont.

i thought i told you i didnt want to play...
i thought i told you i cannot handle another heartbreak...
i thought i told you i was hoping we have a relationship that was transperant...
i thought you agreed to all of those..

i thought you understood...
i thought sorry meant " i will never do it agasin"..
who am i to you ?
am i just someone you use ?
was i conveniently around to be your tool ?

i gave u everything i could and couldnt...
i put you before myself...
i put you before my family..
i put you before the only thing that keeps me alive...

all my decisions i make i have thoroughly thought through and youre a major part of my equation...

where do i stand in your heart ?
wait you have one right ?
who am i to you ?
what do you take me for ?
do i need to explain to you what respect means ?
do you even respect me ?

im tired of digging
im tired of how you only think for yourself
im tired of saying thing AT you, cos it doesnt fucking register
you dont care about me
you dont care for me
you dont care about my things
you just dont care
its all about you